I am dedicated to the Lord Jesus Christ, Who brought me out of the darkness and into His light, and Who is the example of someone who wasn't afraid to hang out with society's "undesirables" in order to show them The Way, The Truth, and The Life. (old christian goth saying)
i got inside me this taunting depression or sorrow. i have been feeling this sadness for a long time now, ever since i destroyed my relationship with a woman i loved for 6 years. well, i know that she's happy now. i made her mother feel so good and her so bad about staying and sticking with me for so long. i had been so wrong with what i did, but then again, i am still blaming myself about what i did. it hurts a lot when i think of the things i have let go because of it.there are times that i woke up feeling i did something so stupid and feels like i have to regret it. much as i want to have her back, i know it was my mistake and foolishness in the first place that caused us to separate. now, im just feeling the effect of it.i have never been honest with myself, maybe i really dont know how to love someone because i still haven't learned how to love myself. maybe i have not yet forgiven myself too.
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