last Sundayo Taytay, Rizal to visit Hazel and her family. it was her niece's 7th birthday. they celebrated the birthday with a party. it was also a chance for me to visit my daughter whom i have not seen since she was like 2 months old. finally i met her again. i was so excited, and i just can't hide it. from the moment i saw her, i took several pictures of her. one of the pictures i got made me feel sad. she won't look me in the eye. i felt the pain only a father feels when his kid seems not to recognize him. i felt rejected. it seems that she's making me feel, this early, the pain she feels in my absence to her. it's really weird but i really felt that she's communicating to me her pains. as i carried her in my arms, i whispered to her, "sorry na prinsesa, wag ka na magalit...". i asked her for forgiveness several times. but it seems that it fell on deaf ears. i was troubled. my heart sank within me. it broke my heart. i was so affected by her reactions to me that i couldn't eat. imagine being at a part where you could not eat because of how your kid treats you. i want to make it up with her, but she'll be going back to Samar this week. and i really hate it.
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