days of innocence [from the cradle to the grave]

we play on the grass,
we scream like hell,
we fight as if we're enemies,
we trash talk til we cry,
eat like we've starved,
run like we're the fastest,
we do things that we now laugh at,
we dream of days to come.

and now we look at
those days that have passed by,
thinking of how they've burned,
our times before we've lost.

we have grown and changed,
we look at the world with ire,
we spit at each other over
who will sit first inside the bus,
we despise those who have many,
we pity those who have none,
and we became proud and stupid.


© 2007, [soulprojekt]

journal

i have two sisters graduating this March. one from high school and the other one from college. the reason why i am here writing this down is because my sister who's graduating from college has texted me informing me that our father cannot give her the money to pay for the graduation fee. it's not much, P3000. unfortunately, March 15 is not until next week so i dont have that money in my wallet. i have paid some dues and gave some to my mother in Laguna. being the eldest, i have been "tasked" to take the burden of the family since my father is now with his 2nd family which my sister graduating from high school is with. he told me before that i am not responsible for my family's welfare. and now, here it comes. i am so confused as to where will i get that money since she needs it by March 7. ahhhh!!!!! i am so exasperated, tired and so confused as to what i will do. the only good thing right now is that i have my work that i can lean on for the meantime for money. i just have to write it down.