thoughts....

i got inside me this taunting depression or sorrow. i have been feeling this sadness for a long time now, ever since i destroyed my relationship with a woman i loved for 6 years. well, i know that she's happy now. i made her mother feel so good and her so bad about staying and sticking with me for so long. i had been so wrong with what i did, but then again, i am still blaming myself about what i did. it hurts a lot when i think of the things i have let go because of it.

there are times that i woke up feeling i did something so stupid and feels like i have to regret it. much as i want to have her back, i know it was my mistake and foolishness in the first place that caused us to separate. now, im just feeling the effect of it.

i have never been honest with myself, maybe i really dont know how to love someone because i still haven't learned how to love myself. maybe i have not yet forgiven myself too.

Amigo Bear Team

today, i received 3 pictures of our team, Amigo Bear Team, who recently won the Team of the Week... not bad for one of the newest teams here at Dell QC Site. well, we got 100% for CE and 100% for XPR. really, not bad. but the news that is bothering me would be our performance for next CE. maintaining or even going not much lower than 80% would be hard work. really hard work. especially since our policies have changed. but nontheless, we still have to work it out. so, just to share some of the pictures from my new team: