never away

was here,
nobody saw,
nobody cares,
no one listens,
betrayed.
angered.
hated.
nobody looks.
ignored.
mocked,
unloved.

until i die

here in the stillness of the night,
i remembered the times before,
those times that i thougth i have
forgotten and was erased from my
buried memories from the deep.

i have to move on and forgive,
i need to live my life and go on,
my life won't be controlled by others.

never will i let people run over me,
i am here to fulfill my own destiny,
my life should not go to waste,
i will have way to succed on my own.

my life won't be over 'til i give up,
and i cannot give it up without a fight.

living a life.
a legacy of my own.

why do angels suffer?

why do angels have to suffer?

why do they have to shed tears?

why do they have to feel the pain?

why does my little angel have to cry?

why does my little nephew have to

endure all of the sorrow and regrets

caused by his parents' mistakes.

your father left you at a tender age,

your mother have to work harder,

and we have to play with you

just for you to enjoy your days.

i can't stand the anger inside of me

every time you let a tear roll by

because of the hardships you're going through,

i felt the remorse whenever i fall short

and was not able to guide you properly.

yes, i am not your father,

but you're still from my bloodline,

and i will not forgive those who will hurt you

for i will bring forth disaster to them.

my prayer for you my little angel,

that God will not take His eyes off you,

hoping for a better tomorrow,

and you'll enjoy your time more than i do.

disheartened

i was about to die yesterday
when you came and cried your
whole heart out to me.

i was about to go and do my own thing
when you called and asked me
to visit you in the hospital.

i was about to kill myself
when you knocked on my door
and asked me to walk with you.

i was to bury my own demons
when you smiled and destroyed
my own defense and high walls.

and now, after all those things,
after all that we have said and done,
and after all that i have given up
everything for you,
you left me,
you buried me,you killed me...
i will never know how it is to love,
your love poisoned me.

to may it may concern

"i am writing you this letter to inform you

of the actions that has taken place

a few hours ago,

nobody intended to tell those things

because we all know who and what

your background is.

we all know you sold your body

to women who are looking for a toy.

you were priced and had sex with them.

we also know that you turned your back

at your God whom you owned everything.

and the most frightening of all,

you have killed two of your unborn kids!

now, tell us, fallen angel, what do you have

to say to this charges against you?

all of them are with proof so you can't lie,

all of these have been recorded and

you swore to an oath to tell the truth.

if i were you, fallen angel,

i would have killed myself in disgrace.

you have been so...

[words can't even be found].

i may not be your conscience but still,

i have the right to tell you these.

why?

i am your darkest past.

YOURSELF."

separation

i was told that you'll be leaving,

i wanted to know if it's true or not.

i needed to hear it from you.

just the other day, we're so happy

together.and suddenly, my days are darker

than before.

all of my life you were there for me,

you know all of my turbulent moments,

the tears i have cried and laughters

that i shared with you.

and now, you'll be leaving me

without a word or anything.

you're so unfair.

what about the love we used to share?

what about the love you promised me?

why would you leave me so soon?

i hate you.