just to share...

yesterday morning, April 20, 2007 at around 2 am, Manila time, we had a small program here at our office. HTMT, Inc gave prizes to employees that has good stats. like our TBASS, ECC and RTF programs. and i was one of the employees who received a small gift. i rated #2 in RTF and #3 in ECC. an achievement that if i may say so, really pushes me to do the best for our cardmembers. i got a polo shirt that has the AmEx logo. 2 tumblers, one has HTMT logo and the other which i really like has the hand or the TATAK AmEx logo. it is one of the happiest days i had in this office. why? because finally, our efforts has been recognized by the management. at least. but i am thankful anyway becasue i am one of the people awarded.

but it doesnt stop there. my TL informed us that HTMT will also give us monetary awards for doing the best that we can. but it will be on a quarterly basis. too bad. but a challenge as well.

butterfly analogy (to where i begin)

if love blooms to be perfect,

why does shadows are being judged?

though love is pure and innocent,

how come he can't be accepted

just the way he is?

nobody thought the moon is breathing,

no one asks why the sky looms at the rain,

but how could a person looked down

on the one she loves?

if rust takes over the metallic heart,

why pour it with water frrom the Pacific ocean

when you know it will add more pain

to the heart that was yours before?

the weather is rough at times,

the sun will hurt you too,

and yet you cursed the wonders of time.

lullabies brings enchantment,

cries of the wounded souls

will ring once more,

i hated to hear again,

the ballad of the fallen angel.

sa isa kong boto...

it's funny how things can go and just passed you by. and this May 14, 2007 will be a new (hopefully), beginning for this country. it's election time. in my own hometown, Cabuyao, Laguna, my current mayor is the wife of the past mayor. and now, he'll be running again. it's sad because, ang kapal na ng mukha nila. they've been in the business of politicking since i was in high school. that was like... almost 17 years ago. and still they're in the position. but, the only thing that they can do is promise people this and that, and then forget all about t afterwards. i also heard that the dean of the Pamantasan ng Cabuyao who molested and violated an student has been released a week after he was imprisoned. why?! because of the mayor of Cabuyao. he was set free just by being a follower. what an achievement for him!

as far as i know, there are three (3) people who are running for mayoralty in my town. and hopefully, the current mayor will not do anything "magical", you know. votes being miscounted and all. i have faith in the government, it's because i have no option. i am in need to believe that the current President of the Philippines is doing her best. but i have my doubts also. just like GMA Network's ad says, "sana may magbago. sana, sa isa kong boto.".

i will make sure i will vote and exercise my rights, i will pray and ask God or BEG GOD to watch and help those poll watchers to guard the votes. hopefully, my countrymen and townsmen will realize SOONER that our votes are sacred and that it's one of the tools we can use to build this country. let's help one another.

between lies and orgasm

trying to cover up my mistakes but

can't seem to see the difference of what

the truth is from dreams.

i thought i had changed,

thought i am living a new life,

i thought i am now different.

am i?

by the way, just to clear up things,

i never loved you.

because we had an agreement, remember?

i just used you for my own fantasies.

and you needed my also.

everytime i am fuck you,

i get satisfied, yes.

but it doesn't mean anything.

you said you're falling for someone new?

so what?

i don't want to be so sharp with words,

because we had our "good times" together

though.

specially in bed.

i loved it when you swallow.

also loved it each time i run my fingers

through your body,

and everytime i get to touch

your breasts.

don't deny.

i have seen how you reacted

with pleasure and satisfaction.

but, everything has to end.

i don't want to play another role

of a stupid guy who just wants sex.

i need to be a husband.

i want to be a father.

i will be a family man.

but not with you.

what dreams may come...

i had to follow my heart,

blend into the public and

smile as if i can.
i had learn to forgive,

it doesnt matter anymore,

my past.

i can't be angry again,

they never knew the pain,

they'll never understand it,

how they caused me grief.

i carried my burden too far now,

it's time to let go,

time to move on,

though it will take more time,

still.

to forget is another thing,

my bitter side still lives,

longs to take matters,

but i can't.

i'll just waste my time.

go on, laugh at me.

you will die also.

Missing

October

i prayed unto God,
i asked forgiveness,
i had been foolish,
i can't deny that fact,
been here time and again.

my nephew