since last week...

i had been with a flu of some sort since last week. unfortunately, it's not coming out. or i am continously being brought down buy this sickness that i was absent for three (3) days from work. been having problems with a relationship, then i jumped to a new girl who i think is not worthy to be taken seriously. i asked our company nurse if it's possible that the sickness i am feeling could really be from within me. from my heart. i am a guy, yes, and emotional at that. oh my...... now, i have a lingering headache and i am not really feeling well. my goodness... include me in your prayers. i may not live long enough to see my son.

today, i just realized that nothing will happen to me here in this country even if i love my country so much. my goodness, it took me a while to see things aren't working as i wanted it to. it's just that i don't want to go really outside, but, unfortunately, i need to. now, i am trying to seek job at UK and Canada. who knows, after trying to survive here maybe i can live a good life outside. unlike here, everything, and i mean everything, is taxable. bonus, cash rewards, payouts, a simple cash award will be taxed. or it's just the company that's cheating us? i don't really know. all i know is, i am getting worned out. i am tired of the things going against me. i need to live my life, fulfill my dreams, etc. hopefully, it won't be taken against me if i pursue a work away from here. i am just praying that God will allow me. please, pray also for me. thanks...